ginger steps.

firstly i wanna take back the vulgar words in the previous entries. vulgarity is never my style and i don't wanna disgrace myself out of rashness just cos of one person or one small thing.

everyone seems to be troubled by their own stuff these days. the whole world is unhappy with the whole world la. though to me it's like my trouble is incomparable and no one's trouble is called trouble when compared to mine, i'm sure that's not the case. i just hope this difficult period will be soon over for everyone cos it just doesn't feel nice to be unhappy and to see people around you unhappy. duh, who doesn't want to be happy?

and i've decided to give her time, give both of us time rather. i shall just see how things go. i still have hope that things will turn out fine one day and we'll go back to normal, though.

here's a poem jeanette sent me, it really inspires me:

People are often unreasonable, illogical,
and self-centered;
Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, People may accuse you
of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some
false friends and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank,
people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building, someone
could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness,
they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.

The good you do today,
people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have,
and it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you've got anyway.

i chose not to include the last verse cos i'm a freethinker. and though this poem doesn't suit my case that well cos after all i'm not surrounded by people that bad, but seriously, it's somehow really encouraging. thanks jeanette (:

i love all my friends and maybe i show it in different ways towards different people, but i still love them all.

don't worry for me, no matter how disappointed and frustrated and upset i get with this world once in a while, i still feel grateful deep inside. the world is a beautiful place.