ginger steps.

i tell myself: i'm not blogging, i'm just noting down some thoughts before they vanish from my mind, heh.

went to bedok for breakfast with sarah and jonathan today before going for our supposed econ remedial. but being the usual sharp me, teehee, my instincts were so strongly telling me i must must must call mr vadi. and great. he was still sleeping and he didn't even remember telling us that there's remedial today. so we mass spammed the class people's inbox telling them there's no econ remedial. johnny was supposed to intro some nice food in bedok to us but apparently we wanted to find some nice place that we could sit down and study so we went to mac, hai again.

it turned out only sarah managed to study, while me and johnny went on and on and on talking about our ahem so-called 'glorious histories' in primary school, and well maybe a bit of it as well in secondary school haha, and talking about people in class, and talking about our siblings (i mean their siblings lol), and talking about our mums. and we found out that me and johnny's mums are so similar that we strongly suspect whether we are some long-lost siblings who belong to the same mum, lol.

the previous 2 paragraphs are not the main point. haha. what i'm trying to talk about is:

sometimes i look around myself and i realise many of my friends' successes today didn't come easy. everyone has been putting in a lot of hard work ever since young, and most have really supporting parents at home. some may not have received very high education, but they are those parents that really think about nothing else but how to provide the best they can for their children's education. people like jingru, shiyi, shushan, johnny, huping, etc, and yea maybe me as well haha.

so sometimes i tell myself, i've come this long way and what i have today didn't come easy, i earned all these with my own hard work, hence i shall not let it go easily either. and this is how i motivate myself to hang on whenever i so feel like giving up.

hoho that sounds damn philosophical lol.

anyway i don't enjoy mugging la. like who does, you tell me. i bet even people like edison and quzhao are not born to mug, please. but still, we have to, it's what we are responsible for, at least at this point of time la.

i have been sacrificing a lot recently. always revise stuff till 2+ in the morning. at least last year during the preparation for o's, i had jingru or changqing or zixian or chunhan to sms me and keep me company late into the night, but now i so don't feel like disturbing them. and i'm getting eyebags, and pimples are invading my face like never before, and i always end up walking around the house in the day like a zombie, and i'm so losing out on my social life. and the worst part's that i don't even know whether this last-minute work will pay off, since karen told me jc's really about consistent daily work. hohum. damn.

nevermind, after promos i'll give myself a nice long break.

to people who are telling me to relax and not be so stressed: thank you for your concern (: i know myself well, don't worry (: