sucky days for me again. i hate it when i have to conclude my week each time with the word sucky, that sucks. urgh, limited vocab.
there's u20s next sunday, which i guess more or less concludes my major fencing career in rj. not that i'm not confident of winning the j1 girls from rgs and getting into school team, but hey they have an average of 4 years of fencing experience and even if i get in i'll probably just play reserve. and on top of all that, there may not even be women foil event for a'div. and of course most importantly, i can't afford to continue watching my studies go down the drains like this, i'm already lagging far far behind for homework and tutorials.
but sometimes trainings can be so fun la, like yesterday when we all just exchanged weapons and fenced. i fenced epee against wenhao and broke jinhan's blade, ouch. still feeling damn bad now. and now i know how jingxun felt when he broke my blade, hehe. and me and bernice fenced sabre against darren, fun fun fun!
and i'm getting damn annoying these days. i'm annoying everyone around me AND myself, all because of dear someone. for how many times have i promised not to talk/think about the someone anymore, and each time i just break my promise. urgh so frustrated with myself la. i'm now trying real hard to use my action to show that i mean what i say, cos seriously, this whole thing about the someone is just childish la, though at one point of time or another, it just can't be helped, heh.
and i don't really know how to put this into words but i shall just try. i know no one can please everyone else in this world, there'll definitely be some people who won't like you. but you know, it just sucks when people don't like you for some weird unreasonable reason that's not even your fault. but again, you don't really need friends like that so just don't give them a damn la.
things that cheer me up: photos random photos!
there's u20s next sunday, which i guess more or less concludes my major fencing career in rj. not that i'm not confident of winning the j1 girls from rgs and getting into school team, but hey they have an average of 4 years of fencing experience and even if i get in i'll probably just play reserve. and on top of all that, there may not even be women foil event for a'div. and of course most importantly, i can't afford to continue watching my studies go down the drains like this, i'm already lagging far far behind for homework and tutorials.
but sometimes trainings can be so fun la, like yesterday when we all just exchanged weapons and fenced. i fenced epee against wenhao and broke jinhan's blade, ouch. still feeling damn bad now. and now i know how jingxun felt when he broke my blade, hehe. and me and bernice fenced sabre against darren, fun fun fun!
and i'm getting damn annoying these days. i'm annoying everyone around me AND myself, all because of dear someone. for how many times have i promised not to talk/think about the someone anymore, and each time i just break my promise. urgh so frustrated with myself la. i'm now trying real hard to use my action to show that i mean what i say, cos seriously, this whole thing about the someone is just childish la, though at one point of time or another, it just can't be helped, heh.
and i don't really know how to put this into words but i shall just try. i know no one can please everyone else in this world, there'll definitely be some people who won't like you. but you know, it just sucks when people don't like you for some weird unreasonable reason that's not even your fault. but again, you don't really need friends like that so just don't give them a damn la.
things that cheer me up: photos random photos!
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