ginger steps.

went j8 yesterday with some class people to shop for v day presents. shopping at j8 for presents is so not sincere la, but heck. got this dust bin thing for my class mortal, just hope he appreciates it as much as i sincerely try to get him something nice:and more presents need to be gotten, but i have 0 idea of what to buy/make, urgh. and now i really really regret not making an effort to prepare nice little presents for all my gal friends last time in dunmanhigh, when everyone else prepared such sweet stuff. only if we are still in the same school, i'll shower you with my love (:

thursday was the first time i ponned a training without a valid reason, and i felt so horrible i felt like i rather go for training to get scolded by henry. i think i'm just weird la. and i claim that i need to get home early to study for math test but in the end i still didn't get anything done. actually i know deep inside it was also cos i didn't know how to face henry. urgh let's not talk about this anymore.

i realise i'm getting even more self-centred these days, always expecting everyone to listen to what i have got to say but never make an effort to listen to what others wanna say. so selfish. and so i keep on reminding myself the whole world doesn't revolve around me. urgh why can't life just be a bed of roses every single day.