tonight is prom night and i wasn't there with all my friends. i always thought it's ok i won't lose much, till all my friends started calling and messaging me to ask where i was so that we could take photos together. and then i had to tell them no i'm not at prom..i'm sorry..are you looking pretty/handsome..what colour is your dress/suit..take lots of photos and show me ok..we'll meet up again. i don't know if my friends know how much their calls and messages have meant to me. and then i realised i've made quite a regrettable decision this time. but i feel happy for everyone cos they all looked great and all had so much fun (:
the last time i cried when parting with my classmates was during sec2. heh we were so silly la, strictly speaking we weren't even exactly parting, we were just getting into different classes the next year. but we cried and cried like there was no tomorrow. the boys didn't cry of course, but for once they were particularly sweet heh. i didn't cry when parting with 4h, and i didn't cry when leaving 3s. i guess it's the fact that we were all busy with o's and a's and we thought we could have all the time in the world to be emo and sentimental after the exams. and we thought we were already grown-ups, crying is for babies larh.
i've never really done a proper summary for my two years in rj. it's been two years and i can't say i feel nothing for the people i met in this school, cos that'll be a damn blatant lie. i guess it's just that in this school, people don't express their feelings and say their i-love-yous as openly and magnanimously as in dunmanhigh. but i look back at all the times i spent with everyone, i realised how much they've left behind for me no matter how hard i may try to deny it. and once again it's the time for me to say how much i hate to move on in life.
i seriously seriously miss school and miss studying. post-a's didn't seem as appealing to me as i thought it would. ely calls me a 'nerd at heart' HAHA. i remember myself saying last time that i like holidays cos i can choose to see people that i wish to see. but now i realise one way for me to see people that i wish to see on a regular basis is to go for school. and i miss wearing my old sneakers and carrying my huge bags and not having to worry so much about my image. at least i don't have to fret over what to wear to work in a bank. and i don't have to learn to wear heels cos it's time for me to wear heels.
and working means i can only meet up my friends at nights and on weekends, if i'm not too tired that is. and working means i won't be able to join my friends if they decide to have a gathering on a weekday. basically working just means i have to spend less time with people that i really want to spend time with cos we may never find another period like this during which we can see one another whenever we feel like to. heh i think i sound like a total spoilt brat la, just cos i have no previous working experience, i'm like making a mountain out of a molehill heh.
anyway! the class girls celebrated ely's belated birthday at lisa's sister's house.
the girls - cynthia + lisa's nephew
birthday girl!
123456! our favourite pic.and 2 days of work for smitten was an experience i must say. the sales didn't turn out as well as we'd hoped, or they'd hoped rather. it didn't matter that much to me cos i was just there for the fun. but for those people who were there for a living..i hope everything'll turn out good eventually. and i found myself falling into the abyss called superficiality heh, cos i had to pick the right customers at first glance. the world outside's like that. i still prefer school.
gotta sleep! pardon me for my intolerable emo-ness earlier on haha. i'm better now after an hour's typing and talking on phone with shiyi. and i think 3 days later i'll just roll my eyes at myself when i reread this haha. i love all of you no matter how cheesy this may sound. even if i choose not to express it you still know i love all of you (:
and this entry's too long, and the space for the entries on the blogskin is too squeezy. why not i get a new blogskin *cough cough hint hint*. nights!
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