ginger steps.

it's my last night in hall before recess week. though recess week is so not gonna be a recess time cos i have tons of tests and projects on the waiting list, i still look forward to it. had my first foc meeting just now. eh i mean for foc'10, haha. i went to read what i wrote this time last year after my first foc'09 meeting:

hello i just came back from the first foc main com meeting and i had a great time with the other cgls and our ic clement. haha i really look forward to working with them for the year ahead (:

this time round it felt very different. i don't know how to describe it. i don't know if it's because of the lethargy after going through one round of foc, or the lack of batchmates in this year's committee. and the conversion from cgl to programmer feels very different too. like what i told kefeng and lixuan, after having been a cgl, no other post in foc seems to be able to give you the same amount of satisfaction all over again. i was looking at my freshie cgls sitting at their table just now, recalling the first time i attended foc meeting as a cgl. back then we barely knew one other, probably all shared lots of optimism and good expectations for the year ahead.

that's why sometimes i tend to tell myself, if time could stop, i hope it stops at the stage where everyone just starts getting to know one another. because of the lack of knowledge of one another, we tend to have a lot to look forward to. things were so much simpler, and life was so much easier, sigh (:

but again, if not because of time, how are you going to identify those who can really survive through the thick and thin with you. how are you going to identify those who can always accept you for who you are, despite the fact that sometimes you can really be a bit annoying, or a bit insensitive, or a bit demanding, because they know you better than all that, and they have faith in who you really are, and not who you may sometimes appear to be. in short, they won't judge. and with such people in life, even if it's just a handful of them, you will realise that unworthy comments of others are something that you'll learn not to entertain.

it's 1.30am and i have lesson at 8.30 tomorrow, i should be sleeping. i seem to be digressing too much. end up talking incoherent stuff (stuff which i keep on repeating over and over again in my blog entries hah) when i was actually talking about foc haha. it must be my single deluxe room that makes me get unnecessarily emo cos i have no other channel to vent.

i look forward to foc'10 ok, really ((: i'm sleeping already, good night (: